Posted by: sasti | January 1, 2010

january 1st

I’ll reach out my hand to you
I’ll have faith in all you do
Just call my name
And I’ll be there

I’ll be there to comfort you
Build my world of dreams around you
I’m so glad I found you yeah
I’ll be there with a love so strong
I’ll be your strength
You know I’ll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well it’s all I’m after
Just call my name and
I’ll be there
I’ll be there to protect you
With an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name
And I’ll be there

dedicated to my beloved parents and sister who celebrate their wedding anniversary (my parents are celebrating their 34th wedding anniversay and my sister is celebrating her 5th wedding anniversary today).
they olwez makes me feel soooooo comfort, cheers me up in bittersweet, and olwez there to protect me..
no one can take their place in my heart, luv them much

Posted by: sasti | December 22, 2009

no one can take her place

wew…it’s been more than a half year since the last time i wrote on this blog 😀
well, regardless the reason why, i wanna share a poem, dedicated to my beloved mother and my mother in law who celebrate their birthday today and also for all mom and mom-to be.

mother is the biggest gift from Allah
mother is the candle burn herself to light up our life
mother is the other name of kindness
she hold us and suffer during the nine months we’re inside her tummy
she feed us for nine months and more than two years
she stays sleepless all the nights holding us
she teach us how to walk and talk
she guides us
she loves from the start to the end
her loves never end
no one can take her place…

happy mommy’s day…
olwez pray for her, makes her happy, and loves her…

* source : here and here

Posted by: sasti | May 12, 2009

if there is time enough…

a686898401_1449975_1937George Bernard Shaw said

Everything happens to everybody sooner or later if there is time enough

ya…if there is time enough. time is the wisest counsellor of all.

there is an appointed time for everything. and there is a time for every event under heaven –
a time to heal, a time to tear down, and a time to build up.
a time to weep, a time to laugh, a time to embrace, a time to search, and a time to give up as lost, a time to keep, a time to tear apart, and a time to sew together
a time to love, a time to give birth

if the time is not enough now, they will be kind enough later

Posted by: sasti | January 16, 2009

how to break out the comfort zone

do you feel comfort with the situation around you? if your answer is yes, congratulation for you. but you have to be aware with those situation, coz you’ll be stuck in a rut (well..hopefully you won’t 🙂

i’ve just read some article, a journal of a state owned company, about change and comfort zone. this is a competition era, for those who are pokey and don’t wanna change, he/she will be crushed by the change itself. but what a pity…some of them feel they’re already in the comfort zone! just like me 😦
well, i have no meant at all nor judged any company/anybody if i say that most people who working at state owned company feel like that.
trap in a zone of supposed comfort determine what we think that we can and cannot do and what we cannot even bring ourselves to try. subconsciously, we build massive barriers rock all around mind.

inside the reefs, the water feels quiet and friendly, but outside we think it’s going to be rough and stormy

yeah..that’s what I (and maybe you too) feel now, what have worked for me in the past marks the boundaries of my comfort zone. once dealt with something successfully, tried the same response next time, and found it worked again, feel so useful. fears, get scared and try to avoid all mistakes are olwez dancing on my mind. sometimes I know what’s going out there, but I don’t have any bravery to take the risks. that’s why probably I miss out on most opportunity (hmm…really?!? I don’t think so 😀

then the question is : what I need? CHANGE!
yes…change my mind, change your mind. we MUST go outside that reef, coz there’s no other way. we must go into the wider world of our unused potential, then make our own way, doing the best we can and quite often getting things wrong (wait…I think it’s not necessary to get things wrong. Let’s do the best and get things right! 🙂 so we won’t stuck in ruts

let’s learn how to do it.

first, do something – almost anything – differently, and see what happens. change whatever is holding us back, and get on with a fresh view on life, we’ll find that there’s a marvelous world out there. we’ll see, if we try it
second, don’t think too much before taking a risk, then take the risks (do you know, this is my biggest fear :(. the easiest way to get into a cold swimming pool is to jump right in (I even never get into swimming pool since 18 years ago!). the same can be said for taking risks. hesitating will only psyche you out.
well, the last and the key point to break out the comfort zone is…JUMP! Jump big and don’t hold back!
uh…this is the hardest thing I guess…

* keywords : culture, change, risk
** source : here

Posted by: sasti | December 22, 2008

happy b’day mum…

celebrating my mum’s b’day, my mother in law’s b’day and also celebrating indonesia’a mothers day, here it is my fave songs, sending to my beloved mums…

the first song…
this song remind me about an old film, i forgot the title, starring : widyawati as a diplomat, and her beloved husband, marina alexandra, and teuku ryan
what a romantic and touched film…

Mother how are you today?
Here is a note from your daughter
With me everything is ok
Mother how are you today?

Mother don’t worry i’m fine
Promise to see you this summer (note : i promise to see you this holiday, i won’t wait till summer, coz i really2 miss u mum…)
This time there will be no delay
Mother how are you today?

I found the man of my dreams
Next time you will get to know him (note : u already know him mum, he’s ur son now)
Many things happened while I was away
Mother how are you today?

and the second song…
sung by boyz II men

You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn’t anything
Or anyone that I could be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side, oh

You were there for me
To love and care for me
When skies were gray

Whenever I was down
You were always there
To comfort me

And no one else can be
What you have been to me
You will always be

You will always be the girl
In my life, for all times

Mama, mama you know I love you (I love you)
You know I love you
Mama, mama, you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like tears from the stars (Yes it is)
Mama I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
(Yes it is, yes it is, oh yes it is,
yes it is, yes it is, oh)

You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me
Even when I was bad
You’ve shown me right from my wrongs
Yes you did

And you took up for me
When everyone was down on me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

There were so many times
Looking back when I
Was so afraid

And then you’d come to me
And say to me
I could face anything

And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be, you will always be
The girl in my life

Mama, mama you know I love you
(You know I love you)
You know I love you
Mama, mama, you’re the queen of my heart (You are)
Your love is like tears from the stars
(Your love is like tears from the stars)
Mama I just want you to know (Mama I just want you to know)
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul

Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinkin’ about you
I’ll never go a day without my

Mama, mama you know I love you
(You know, mama, you know I love you)
You know I love you
Mama, mama, you’re the queen of my heart
(The queen of my heart)
Your love is like tears from the stars
(See your love, your love is like tears from the stars)
Mama I just want you to know (Mama whoa, my mama, mama)
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
(Loving you is like food to my soul)

Oh yeah, yeah
You are the food to my soul
Yes you are

send a hug for ur mother please…
let us olwez keep in touch with her, please call her everyday
coz her love never end

Posted by: sasti | October 21, 2008

the fallin’ rain

after the tear drops… then the rain is fall rite now
alhamdulillah…maybe this is the answer of the despondency. this is a sign that we’re blessed, hopefully
whether i still duno the answer of ur question, i still confuse about how i feel, i know Allah olwez be with us, guide us to the straight path soon
the fallin’ rain is just like a dessert on the sahara. shower the earth with the awaited clemency. when the wind blows, u can feel the heart beat so respendently.

i can’t wait to see that time, when it goes to the peace on earth. when u are here with me

Posted by: sasti | October 8, 2008

8 – 10 – 8

eight october two thousands and eight…
getting closer to the end of year. it means that i should make a step forward soon, whether i will stay here or move to the hectic city. it’s not easy for me, of course. leaving all the memories, leaving all the ‘lovable’ job and friends.
honestly i’m still confuse about my job. i don’t want to leave it all, but i don’t want to stay the same too. so..what should i do?
no one can foresee this life and nothing is simple in this life. all of us are looking for good life, for success, for love and for peaceful life

we fight a little when we ask for more. why don’t we fight strongly to get what we want?

yes…maybe i should fight strongly to get what i want, for love, a better life, and success

Posted by: sasti | September 25, 2008

tik tak time

september datang kembali dan waktu 3 tahun sudah berlalu tak terasa. masi inget saat2 pertama kali menginjakkan kaki di bumi soerabaja yg panas untuk memenuhi panggilan hati. duuh…di kamar yg kecil di sudut rumah yg itu air mata ini tak sesaat mengucur deras. inget bapak, ibu, kakak, serasa saat2 bersama itu seakan hilang dari raga ini. masi inget jg gimana kuatirnya ibu karena aku harus menjalani puasa Ramadhan sendirian, tak tersedia makanan, es.. hmm..that’s makes me realize how much they love me.. thanks mum..

masi inget saat harus kerja 6 hari, lebih dari 40 jam seminggu, berkutat dengan angka2 menjemukan dan keluar dengan alasan yg kini tak jadi nyata 😀
masi inget jg abis itu kerja cuma telpon mlulu, dan ‘kerja bakti’ untuk ‘cinten’ pelit berinisial D. hmm…itu sudah berlalu
detik ini alhamdulillah aku sudah banyak diberi anugerah oleh-Nya. bisa merasakan begitu banyak nikmat, berusaha mengabdi untuk negeri, dapat keluarga besar yang menyenangkan dan sayang sama aku.

tiga tahun yg lalu jg..aku selalu memandangi dan takjub akan sebuah gerbang besar yg angsa2 di atasnya selalu disinari temaram lampu di malam hari. detik ini alhamdulillah aku sudah tinggal di dalamnya. tak pernah terbayang sebelumnya.

warna warni perjalanan hidup selalu menyenangkan dan jadi kenangan, meski banyak halangan dan rintangan. coz we have to realize that

The path to our destination is not always a straight one. We go down the wrong road, we get lost, we turn back. Maybe it doesn’t matter which road we embark on. Maybe what matters is that we embark.

ya Allah…ternyata waktu sudah berlalu begitu cepat tak terasa
jam pasir itu sudah berbalik 3 kali
tapi ribuan kali nikmat telah Engkau berikan

i believe that there must be a lot of happiness after this pursuit
i believe that Allah olwez gives the preciously gifts for me, for u, for all of us

Posted by: sasti | August 29, 2008

Marhaban Yaa Ramadhan…fasting our way for mercy

fasting teach us good mercy
fasting raise us to the sky
we look with opening eyes
to the poor man as a brother

fasting grant self dreaming peace
fasting give us the best strenght
how to control our selves
how love can be, with flower

when u’re thirsty you can feel how thirsty people feeling too
when u’re hungry you can see how people need each other

we eat too much during eleven months
we drink water for eleven months
fastin in the short time will make us sharing poor
and have a power

fasting teach us how to love each other
how to make the world better

rasheed alqahas

please forgive me
happy fasting
may Allah give us a chance to see the eid. amien

Posted by: sasti | July 24, 2008

when i miss U much

have u ever received or at least read this message?
i’ve just check my email then i found this conversation
let’s take a break and think for a few minutes…

Say Hi To God
(note : sorry if the conversation still in Indonesian)

– Tuhan…
+ Apa, Sayang?
– Aku kangen.
+ Aku juga. Kemana saja kamu?
– Aku terdampar di sini. Sudah lama ingin menelepon-Mu.
+ Tinggal angkat telepon saja. Sebegitu mudah.
– Masalahnya pulsaku habis.
+ Kamu habiskan untuk apa saja?
– Tidak jelas. Sms sana sms sini, telepon sana telepon sini, hanya mencari pereda kegelisahan, kurasa.
+ Lalu ini pulsa siapa yang sedang kamu pakai?
– Punyaku. Tinggal sedikit lagi.
+ Jadi kamu menghubungi Aku ketika pulsamu tinggal sisa-sisa, begitu?
– Sudah kubilang, aku sedang gelisah.
+ Kotak obat dzikirmu memangnya sudah kosong?
– Mmm… Maafkan aku…

Tut… Tut… Tut…

– Tuhan? Tuhan? Jangan pergi! Jangan putuskan aku!
+ Aku selalu di sini. Kamulah yang selalu pulang pergi.
– Mengertilah, pulsaku sangat tipis.
+ Salahmu sendiri pakai prabayar. Bukankah sudah kusediakan kartu pascabayar dengan limit tak terbatas?
– Aku khawatir tidak bisa mengontrol diri.
+ Bukan. Kamu tidak percaya pada kekuatanmu sendiri. Hidup yang Kuberikan juga sebuah fasilitas pascabayar. Kenapa ragu?
– Aku sedang berpikir untuk ganti provider saja. Bagaimana?
+ Aku tidak menjamin kalau nanti suara-Ku putus-putus, kresek-kresek, tiap 5 menit mati, bahkan bisa jadi suara yang kamu dengar nanti bukan suara-Ku. Kamu memilihku karena XL itu berarti Xtra Large, bukan? Ya karena kamu tahu sendiri Aku memang Maha Besar. Mentari itu Aku yang buat. IM-3 juga cuma sebuah sekuel dari Impossible Mission yang sutradaranya Kupilih sendiri ­buat yang ketiga ini dia pilih Tom Cruise lagi ya? Uh, sebetulnya Aku sudah bosan dengan dia. Kamu sudah nonton? Sepertinya kamu lebih tertarik dengan Da Vinci Code. Aku punya tiket gratis buatmu, mau?
– Sekarang ini aku lebih ingin menelepon-Mu, tapi biayanya sungguh mahal. Provider lain banyak yang kasih promo gratisan.
+ Untuk urusan dengan-Ku kamu berani bertaruh dengan yang murah-murah itu? Aku eksklusif. Biayanya memang mahal, tapi Aku jamin, kamu pasti mendapat yang
terbaik. Aku ini Pebisnis Maha Adil. You’ll get what you pay. Believe Me. Lagipula dari situ Aku bisa menilai, siapa yang betul-betul berusaha untuk tetap
setia pada-Ku dan siapa yang tidak. Dan satu lagi, selalu ingatlah bahwa Aku Maha Pemurah.
– Ya, aku bersaksi untuk itu.
+ Kuterima kesaksianmu.

– Tuhan.
+ Apalagi, Sayang?
– Aku sedang berpikir lain. Akan kubuang saja HP-nya. Aku ingin langsung main ke rumah-Mu.
+ Rumah-Ku bukan tempat main-main, lagipula undangan khusus buatmu belum dicetak. Tunggulah. Sabar sebentar. Sementara itu cepat ganti kartumu dengan pascabayar ya?
– Ya. Tapi aku tak ingin tuhan yang lain. Aku cuma mau Kamu.
+ Tidak ada Tuhan yang lain. Cuma Aku.

– Tuhan…
+ Hm?
– Dari tadi aku cuma mengoceh. Sebetulnya aku letih…
+ Aku tahu, dan itu wajar. Sengaja Kuciptakan keletihan, berdampingan dengan kewarasan, sebagai teman setia bagi seorang pencari sepertimu.
– Hhh… Bukan letih yang itu. Aku letih. Sungguh letih… Aku hanya ingin dipeluk, lalu diam.
+ Kemarilah. Tak perlu undangan khusus untuk itu.

– Tuhan…
+ Ya, Sayang.
– Aku sayang Kamu.
+ Aku lebih-lebih lagi, Sayang.

then we have to realize that He will olwez here for us…

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